85 days ago I lost an awesome best friend. This loss is difficult for me to wrap my mind around. Perhaps it's so incomprehensible because he has always been there: my first tooth, my first word, my first step, my first time ad infinitum.
I'm writing these words from my mom's house in my home town, Boise, Idaho. So many memories of dad are flooding my mind. I have spent a great deal of time thinking of what dad would do or say in various situations. As mom and I spend time talking with each other dad is frequently in our conversations. He is just so unforgettable with his loving smile, his playful teasing, his affirming words, and frequent hugs.
How do you describe this kind of loss? I would have to say I feel stunned by the magnitude of this bereavement. And yet I can't begin to imagine how deep the pain and anguish is for my precious mother. She has lost the love of her life, her best friend, her soul mate, and her prayer and Bible reading partner. Dad and mom were constant companions who loved and cherished each other in a manner many couples never experience.
I have been so impressed with my Mom's response to this life altering ordeal. She has followed the words of the Psalmist who said, “When I'm overwhelmed lead me to the rock that is higher than I.” She has made the commitment to go deeper into His love and grace, to seek Him more intently, to surrender even more fully to His purpose.
Several times my mom has said, “Mike, I don't know what people do in a time like this who don't know the Lord.” While all the pain doesn't suddenly disappear, we have a comforter, the Holy Spirit who abides within us, and offers us His amazing comfort and strength.
Difficult times are great times to remember that God is the source of our life!

